Assalamalykum, May Allah give MSN long life Ameen.
Allahumma sali ala muhammmadin wa ala alhi muhammadin waslim
I had dream i was being swept away by mud that i couldn’t get out and got scared. Then i managed to get out and became dirty with all the mud and spiders that i shaked them off me.
I’m always fearing my lord as waswaas have ruined me that I feel I can’t control myself saying bad things in the heart and mind about Allah and Rasul that lead to my heart and mind burning. It is only when i get burning feeling inside after evil thoughts i fear my lord soooo much and don’t want to lose my imaan. I can never let go of my prayer and award because deep down I love Allah and my prophet Muhammad P.B.U.H.
wa `alaykum salam,
Do not say ‘my life is ruined’, but say ‘O Allah put my life in order’. Shaytan wants you to despair and lose hope. Allah wants success for you. Keep your heart and love to Allah and Prophet (saws) and make sajdah much to strengthen your personality.