Assalamu alaykum, I wanted to ask u a dream meaning. Bismillahir Rahmanir Raheem. I see my self in my father’s family who I live among. In the dream I feel outcast from them and I saw them mocking me. I got angry and went forward by arguing and then I grabbed one of my cousins throat and kept pressing it hard. Until I recited a’udhubillahi minash shaytaanir rajeem. I stopped. Then I see my self dead. In my grave. I get up from there and see people around me. I can hear and see but can’t speak. I see one person in tareeqah I know there grieving and my brother was crying. Then I go back in the grave and my brother shuts the grave. I get afraid a little but I feel that nakirain are coming so I remember their question “who’s your lord?”before they come I hear my self reciting salawat shareefah. What does all of this mean?
Wa Alaykum Salam,
Awliya are putting you in spiritual Khalwah during this month, which is the normal time for Khalwah. They put you in dream because you cannot handle physical Khalwah, and inshaAllah you received the maqam of “mootoo qabla anta moot (die before u die).”