When I was growing up I suffered almost constant emotional trauma, neglect and abuse from people who I should have been able to trust, which has essentially ruined my life. I have been told that I should look through the people who did this and see Allah as he let this happen to you for a reason, but what reason exactly. I’ve never had any friends, a relationship or even relations with the opposite sex due to my paranoia and suspicions about people’s motives. I’m 4_ and it feels like my life is over before it even began?
Sorry to hear about these challenges you faced. Try to find a trustworthy professional who can help you foster positive relationships. Recite daily 100 x HasbunAllahu wa ni’am al-Wakeel to make things easier.