I used to watch Haraam stuff for a long time of period and never kept my self paak and then I had a depression attack and my heart had become a stone. I feel like najis all the time even after getting ghusal. I want to become paak again and regain iman again.
- Seek out a guiding Shaykh to accompany, if not physically, at least via the Internet, and take baya` with him.
- seek marriage as soon as possible to protect yourself from haram.