Asalamuwalaikum wrwb Ya Sayyidi and eShaykh staff,
I am full of arrogance, anger, and pride. I behave like an overgrown child, not like a woman in her 30s. Sayyidi you have seen my filthy heart. You raised me from darkness and dirtiness only for me to waste and take everything you gave me for granted.
I am ashamed, scared, and so sorry for everything I have done in my dirty life. I am so scared to lose more, to lose my faith and my tie to you. I am ashamed that you and Mawlana Shaykh Nazim carry my garbage. I am sick.
Please Sayyidi pray for me and help me. Please can you forgive me? I know I can never make up for the things I have done. Please, may Allah (swt) have mercy on me. I am trying to find my way, please tell me what to do.
Mawlana Shaykh Hisham will pray for you and forgives you. Recite, “Yaa Halim” 100x daily before Fajr.
Hajj Gibril Haddad