Assalamu alaikkum va rahmatullahi barakkathahu
I [privatel] ,am the grant uncle of [private], of Singapore, who might have informed you about me. I am living in India, was a mureed of local Shaykh [private] of Qadiriya Chistiya tariqa, who passed away a few years ago. Until he was died I was frequently in touch with him, mentally happy of being spiritually alive , a kind of feeling all the mureeds used to have in his presence as well as he was physically away from us. He used to give us a lot taalim.
After his demise I visit his cemetery not very frequently, because I do not have the requisite compatibility with any of his khaliphas,who all seemed to be pretenders, by the very yardstick prescribed by my late respectful Shaykh. I avoid going to his cemetery because I have to be in touch with the khaliphas with whom I am not comfortable with.
I attended the Shaykh kabbani’ s lecture delivered at Singapore, where he said if you don’t get a shaykh , your heart itself will work as shaykh.
Now the purpose of this mail.
1. I feel I am without a Guide, but I do not want to associate with my earlier silsilah’s khaliphas , who are very upset with me for not coming to them.
2. I have a feeling of indescribable feeling of remorse and sorrow all the time without any reason.
3. I have a guilty feeling of not in touch with my silsilah’s people, esp. Khaliphas ,but I am definitely not comfortable with them.
4.Being the sons of my late shaykh are dominant khaliphas , I am bit afraid that it might incur the displeasure of my late shaykh. But I feel they want mureeds only to subjugate for their worldly ends and personal gains.
5. I am worried about my relationship with Allah and Rasool sallalahu alaihi wasallam and my end.
Please advise me to extricate myself out of my present predicament and unfounded fear.
wa alaykum salam wa rahmatullahi wa barakutuh,
Having met your nephew, I have utmost respect and admiration for your family, which cannot be described except as `ashiqeen ar-rasul. May Allah raise you all higher and higher.
Mawlana Shaykh Hisham has said repeatedly and this is a firm principle in Sufism: “A seeker must have a living shaykh.”
(for more details see The Need for a Living Guide)
You should seek a shaykh that makes you feel connected to the Divine Presence and to the Presence of Rasulullah, sall-Allahu `layhi wa sallam, else you will always be in qabd (constricted) state because your ruh is not getting its proper nourishment of heavenly faiz.
I strongly recommend to take online baya` with Mawlana Shaykh Nazim Adil al-Haqqani and meet with his representatives in India or Singapore and attend the Khatm and assocation. When possible travel to meet Mawlana Shaykh Nazim to confirm your spiritual baya` with the physical one.