I did some thing in the past and my reputation is heavely damaged. I am not like that any more and all of that problem was not totally my fault. What am I supposed to do? It makes me despair of Allah. I am not as bad as every one thinks and I have no supportive friend to tell all this to.
A`udhu billahi min ash-shaytan ir-rajeem
Bismillahi ‘r-Rahmani ‘r-Raheem