In 2005 I saw a vision of gold room with gold chairs and gold table. This was when I was doing zikr/ dhikr at a work colleagues house at night just before fajr (probably Wednesday or Thursday). It happened when I was closing my eyes and another pair of eyes opened inside of me. There was a guide leading the zikr/ dhikr. Is it possible to see visions while I’m doing zikr/ dhikr on my own? The guide is not available anymore because he has a business and only allows his family to do the zikr/ dhikr. I am really depressed because of this. Please help I’ve been trying zikr by myself a few times after the event, but nothing happens except I see clouds (like a tunnel) when closing my eyes in a dark room.
Bismillahir Rahmanir Raheem,
To want to see something during zikr or to want to have a vision of spiritual world indicates a less than sincere intention and may lead to depression. Sometimes by Allah’s mercy someone may see something out of ordinary in a dream or in a vision (semi awake state) or in physical reality, but that should not be the goal at any point in our life. The goal is to achieve Allah’s acceptance (qabool) and satisfaction (reda) through obedience to the teaching of the Holy Messenger of Allah, Hazrat Muhammad sallal lahu alaihis salam. Zikr, meditation are all practices that improve our attachment to Allah Rabbul A’lameen.
If you can, find a local zikr circle of Mawlana Shaykh Nazim or Shaykh Hisham and go there on weekly basis. If not, you may go to www.sufilive.com and join zikrullah with Mawlana Shaykh Hisham live. Insha Allah depression will go away.