Question:
AOA
BEFORE MARAFAT, I WAS VERY SINFUL PERSON BUT AS I RECEIVED MARAFAT AND ISHQ OF ALLAH(SWT) & PROPHET (SAW)….MY (IKHLAQ) MORALS WAS COMPLETELY CHANGED.
AS I MAKE A DUA IN MY HEART, IT SUDDENLY GET COMPLETED.AS I DO A SIN I REPENT AT SAME TIME. I SAW DREAMS OF RESTING PLACE OF WALI AND MET A WALIYA in ground..
I DO LOT OF ZIKR, SALAWAT & LISTEN QURAN WITH MEANING ON RADIO (GAINED AFTER HIDAYATH).
BUT A TIME CAME WHEN MY A LEVEL EXAMS CAME..MY ZIKR,SALAWAT &LISTENING OF QURAN REDUCES…AT SAME TIME MY MOM SPOTTED ME DOING ZIKR IN SECLUSION AND TOLD EVERYONE….
AFTER, I WAS ATTACK BY WASWASAAT AT EVERYTIME..I WAS ATTACK by satan SO SERIOUs THAT I STARTED (DOUBTING) ALLAH(SWT) EXISTENCE…NOW I HAVE DO TAUBA BUT I’VE LOST MARAFAT. I AM SO STRESSED AND SAD..I’M ASHAMED OF MYSELF..PLEASE ASK MOULANA SHEIKH HISHAM I BEG..
Answer:
Don’t worry but continue regularly with your daily wazifa. Do your best to also attend group dhikr in your area. Mawlana Shaykh Hisham is praying for you.
Hajj Gibril Haddad