Request:
Dear shaykh,
Salam,
Since age of 15, I suffer from addiction (watching haram things on the internet). This addiction has lasted more than ten years. I am married, it doesn’t help. I decided to take bay’a to shaykh Nazim a few days ago. However, I fall again in the addiction, and I am wondering if it does invalidate my bay’a. I became mureed two days ago, I didn’t get the zikr routine yet, and I still have many of my bad habits of the past. Please help me shaykh and tell me what I should do to repent. I really feel there is a seed of good in my heart after the bay’a, I fear so many years of darkness in my heart cannot vanish easily. Is it normal? am I hypocrite? I regret having taken my bay’a now instead of having waited that my addiction disappear. Please help me
Response:
wa `alaykum salam,
Please refer to the advice in this posting.
Abdul Shakur
