Question:
Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh:
Sheikh, I can’t forget my husband’s past mistake before marriage. I thought I can forget about this but I just realized after married, I can’t accept him. Everyday I cry, feel sad and disgust remembering things that he has done to me in the past. I felt that I need him, but I think I don’t love him anymore.
I’m sorry to ask, but is it possible that Mawlana Sheikh Nazim blessed us in marriage just to erase our sin while we’re dating? My family didn’t know that we’re married because I get married in Cyprus. He want to make it official, but I don’t think I can live with him or have kid with him. I don’t know what to do Sheikh. Please help me.
Answer:
`Alaykum Salam,
What is past is past. Try to accept the spiritual sustenance gifted to you by Allah Most High through a marriage that was blessed by Sultan al-Awliya’. Doubts are from shaytan who tries to plant all sorts of misgivings on the path of your spiritual betterment, so look at the good reasons for which you embraced your marriage in the first place and build on those.
Hajj Gibril Haddad
