Question:
Assalamu alaykum,
May Allah shower Sheikh Nazim and all his followers with barakah. Lately I feel like giving up on life as there is no hope for me. I have the curse of Allah looming on me for intentionally missing Ramadan fasts. I have committed sins so much. Because of the curse, my prayers are not being accepted. I am failing school and have made my parents depressed about not getting into Medical School. Inshallah I want to make up my prayers and fasts, but my Iman is weak. I have love of dunya and lots of anger. Nothing good is coming out of me. Allah has given me so many blessings, but I still feel cursed by my own actions. Please pray for me sometimes I feel like running away or committing suicide, my heart is diseased I feel it. Jazakullahukhair.
Answer:
wa `alaykum salam,
Insha-Allah Mawlana Shaykh Hisham is praying for you.
Take online initiation to Mawlana Shaykh Nazim and seek his spiritual support.
Recite and return to this verse again and again:
{Say: “O my Servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah. for Allah forgives all sins: for He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.} (az-Zumar, 39:53)
Use this time of constriction as an opportunity to return to Allah with your whole heart, Allah will come “running” to you. Make intention to fast the coming Ramadan, and intend with Divine Support to make kaffarah for the missed fasts.
Taher Siddiqui
