Request:
I have no relation with family, unmarried, with no friends and no money. When I was young I was very disrespectful to my parents and we all struggled in sickness and pain. I grew up sad, fighting, and being beaten . Very young with no wish for life I started playing Ouji boards and paranormal was the only thing I cared about until a couple years later I struggled with what doctors call OCD. Maybe I’m crazy or jinn’s playing with my mind… I’m strong and able to overpower those crazy thoughts now, but for years I had irrational fears that almost got me crazy. Reading Quran has helped. My parents tried all ruquia, and sheiks. I see the pain of my parents for all the cursing done in the past…weird things happened . I cry for everything and have bad dreams. I believe I’m cursed and nothing or nobody can help. I just wanted to share my story.
Response:
Audhubillahiminashaytanirajeem
BismillahirRahmanirRahim:
As Salaam alaikum,
Thanks for sharing.
Our Beloved Prophet (saws) said:
My intersession is for the big sinners of my community.
And Allah said: 39:53:
Say: O my Servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah: for Allah forgives all sins: for He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
Meditate on this ayat of Quran and hadith and Ask Allah to heal your pain by intercession of Prophet (saws). Keep reading and striving and don’t despair of Allah’s mercy.
Wallahu Alam,
Kamau Ayubbi
