Question:
Salam.
Lately there has been some weird stuff happening around me.
This has been happening a couple of times now, first time when I was 16.
It all started with me seeing the Prophet in my dream when I was around 10 years old.
In the dream the Prophet told me that I should “save his ummah“, and in my dream, people were running in panic as if there was a qayamah.
After that, when I was 16, I was swimming in the ocean, this is reality. I was very lonely and tired of my life, I had lost the love of my life, a girl named [private]. So I decided to take my life by drowning. So I held my breath for as long as I could and then started to swim down, so I wouldnt make it back up again. Thats when the weird stuff happened. Instead of drowning, when I reached bottom of the ocean I suddenly came up on top of the ocean. And I was very confused so I tried again and even the second time I didnt drown. Then I swear I could stand on the water, and then when I started to think that I was something special, I fell into the water again.
I didnt tell anyone about this. But after that, every year between Christmas and easter, there comes a period where I get a real spiritual boost and say and write stuff that I dont have any clue about. Its a lot related to the Prophet and the Mahdi, and the Prophet Isa and his mother Mariam (as).
And I dont really know whats happening. Every year I suddenly lose control, and then after a couple of months I gain control again and look back at my actions the last couple of months and I dont know where I get this knowledge from… I suddenly write a lot of poetry in English and Urdu and some in Arabic.
What should I do? And what is happening to me?
Answer:
wa ‘alaykum salam
You are ok, awliya are calling you to your true self. Find a true shaykh and take baya and then follow his guidance.
Taher Siddiqui
