Question:
Asalam Alaykum,
Over time, I’ve noticed that whenever I become closer to the path of tasawwuf, my nafs starts getting stronger. Astaghfirullah. I am so depressed due to my state, I never ever purposely think of haram or indulge in such sins, but I see bad dreams and have bad thoughts when ever I want to become closer to Allah & RasulAllah (s).
I keep thinking this is not me, I hate haram things- but where is this coming from? Please tell me why this is happening, is shaytan burning because I’m doing dhikr and trying to remember Allah more, or are these the filthy traits of my own nafs coming out before me as part of a cleansing process? Also, if this is cleansing my inner soul, please make dua that I soon be free and away from all that Allah & the Beloved SalAllahuAlahiWasallam dislike.
May Allah bless you.
Answer:
Audhu billahi min ash-shaytan ir-rajim
Bismi-llāhi r-raḥmāni r-raḥīm:
Wa `alaykumu s-salāmu wa rahmatu l-lāhi wa barakātuh,
Insha Allah Mawlana Shaykh Hisham Kabbani is praying for you.
You may follow the advice on this post, and read Mawlana Shaykh Hisham Kabbani’s explanation about this state called Maqam al Talweeb, the colored station.
And Allah knows best.
Wissam
