I had written this question to you a while back. It has now been two months since i found out–i am still dealing with a lot of anger, hatred and repulsion towards my husband—anger that his actions have led to my current state of getting an STd, repulsion that he could do such a thing–please tell me duas or ziker i could read to heal my heart and work on the repulsive feelings i feel towards him—
I have sought counseling and also seeing an imam, but for the past month i have been out of my husband’s home and visiting my own family away from the city and do not have the imam here —distance sometimes makes me fonder of him, however, i can’t rid of my waswasas and keep getting angrier and sadder.
Focus on Allah Most High and confess your need of improvement before the Prophet upon him blessings and peace. Make istighfar x100 and recite Ya Haleem Ya Jabbar every day x100 and Allah will mend everything for you in sha Allah.
Hajj Gibril Haddad