Bismillahir Rahmanir Raheem, Salaatul Nabi,
As-Salaamu alaiykum wr wb,
I hope you all are well and in the best of iman. Unfortunately my life has taken a turn for the worse from being in a very good position to being in a very bad one.
I am finding it very difficult to pray, work or make dzikr and there are many people who count on me. It is following on with a bad thing that I did without knowing why, which is that I pulled out of a marriage. I feel very bad and stupid and feel that I have missed a great opportunity, but I honestly thought it was the right thing to do.
I know that life with iman is going to become more challenging and I am now not in a good position to deal with that.
I am sorry,
As-Salaamu alaiykum wr wb.
wa alaykum salam wa rahmatullahi wa barakutuh,
Pulling out of a marriage is not a sin. Look inside yourself to see the real cause of the negativity that is affecting you. Did you break someone’s heart? If so, try to make amends, seek forgiveness of the one you hurt, and then move on. Shaykh Hisham says recite daily Astaghfirullah 300x, la ilaaha ill ‘Llah 100x and end it with Muhammad Rasulullah sall-Allahu `alayhi wa sallam and 10x Salawat.