Request:
My iman has taken a battering since an event that occurred in 200_ (a guy I knew swore on the Qur’an an oath of marriage) was having a sexual relationship with my non-Muslim roommate. they even conspired to give me sleeping pills. She has now come into my religious community as a Muslim, through him. I have lost hope in my creator/religion my duas have not been answered and I have this tremendous feeling of dread and fear. I am so lonely and often think of committing suicide. I feel so betrayed and feel like a relentless punishment is on my, yet I wasn’t the one who did this to them. They did it to me. I left my home because of their actions and now I have to leave the country because I cannot bear to be near her. I feel unsafe! I have no one to turn to, please help.
Response:
After these severe tests you will find a more peaceful and trusting life in sha Allah. Do not be angry with Allah Most High but rather look for a sincere servant of Allah who will not betray you. You are faultless and therefore your forbearance and patience will reap you the highest rewards here and hereafter in sha Allah.
Hajj Gibril Haddad
