Im an American born revert to Islam. I committed Haram cigarettes during my first Ramadan, then when I became disgusted with myself for breaking fast, became apostate, and made some statements accusing Islam of cultural bias, to justify my weakness.
In-sha-Allah Mawlana Shaykh Hisham Kabbani is praying for you.
Now that you have repented, recite the Shahadatayn, ashadu la ilaha ill ‘Llah wa ashadu anna Muhammada rasoolullah sall-Allahu `alayhi wa sallama, and ask Allah to forgive you by reciting 300x istaghfirullah. Make this your daily practice every morning before Salat al-Fajr.