I had a very disturbing & unusual childhood/youth due to family & many things in my life have been a reaction of this. When I was 18 years old, out of same reaction I damaged someone’s life & happiness seriously. Now I realize that I was too immature to know consequences of what I did. I’ve repented & realized my mistake even if it was made as a teenager. I pray for that person every day & for Allah to forgive me and make that person’s life happy. Recently I met a mureed sister who knows this person. If I seek apology from this person, I will have to disclose my sin to this sister..which Allah has mercifully veiled up until now. This person had cursed me while on the prayer mat and I still have troubled life. what can I do to undo all this?
wa `alaykum salam!
audhu billah mina ‘sh-shaytani ‘r-rajeem,
Bismillahi ‘r-Rahmani ‘r-Raheem,
Wa as-salatu wa as-salam `ala Rasulullah wa `ala alihi wa sahbihi wa sallam.
Allah ta`ala knows best, and Prophet (peace be upon him) knows best, and my Shaykh (Allah ta`ala blesses him) knows best. After all that, all I am left with is my humble opinion (may Allah ta`ala forgive me), which is to advise you not to say anything to the ‘murid sister’. Be patient, praying and seeking forgiveness, until such time as a more suitable and discrete opening comes, insha-Allah.