Assalamu Alaikum Shaikh,
My soul is never at rest. Whenever I pray, I hope it will come true only to have my dua not happen or the opposite happen. While I understand not all duas are answers, my soul has become sad. I dua but think “it will never happen.” I’ve lived through trials kids my age could never imagine. Physically I fight to function normally, and Shaikh I cry as I’m typing this, I’m tired. I just want one thing to happen that’s not taken away. I’ll tell myself the next day will be better, especially if it’s Jumma. Only to get really bad information on Jumma. This has been happening for two years. Im not are how much more I can endure. Please Shaikh dua for me. I need good changes, please.
With dhikr the soul feels rest. Find a jamaa that does dhikr and join them on a regular basis. Make salawat daily as it will make you happy. Look for Awliya in your area and visit them on a regular basis. Asking for guidance in a state of need is worship so be glad because you are in a state of nearness to Allah in sha Allah.
Hajj Gibril Haddad