Question:
Salam aleykoum wa rahmatullah wa barakatouh.
O sheikh, I lead a khatm today and suddenly during zikr, I saw myself “enveloped” into mawlana sheikh Nazim and then mawlana sheikh Hisham. And during the “Allah” part, I heard like many people saying Allah and while having eyes closed, saw people doing the naqshbandi hadra.
I tried to speak about a suhba with my brothers after, but I ended up into making a speech alone and I’m afraid I did let my ego speak and misinterpreted things. The other people are not mawlana murid yet and are discovering sufism, though seem very receptive.
What should I do, and is all this from my nafs trying to make me believe I reached something I didn’t? It’s not the first time I see people and mawlana closing my eyes during khatm but this time was particularly strong.
Barakallahou fik (sorry for the long explanation.)
Answer:
Alaykum salam,
Continue but just make istighfar when you fear ego is acting up. You may
open one of Mawlana’s book and read from there.
Hajj Gibril Haddad
