Salam aleykoum wa rahmatullah wa barakatouh.
O sheikh, I lead a khatm today and suddenly during zikr, I saw myself “enveloped” into mawlana sheikh Nazim and then mawlana sheikh Hisham. And during the “Allah” part, I heard like many people saying Allah and while having eyes closed, saw people doing the naqshbandi hadra.
I tried to speak about a suhba with my brothers after, but I ended up into making a speech alone and I’m afraid I did let my ego speak and misinterpreted things. The other people are not mawlana murid yet and are discovering sufism, though seem very receptive.
What should I do, and is all this from my nafs trying to make me believe I reached something I didn’t? It’s not the first time I see people and mawlana closing my eyes during khatm but this time was particularly strong.
Barakallahou fik (sorry for the long explanation.)
Continue but just make istighfar when you fear ego is acting up. You may
open one of Mawlana’s book and read from there.
Hajj Gibril Haddad