Assalamoalaikum. I am a mother of a 1 year old daughter. Ever since I gave birth I have noticed some behavioural changes in me that have been scaring me. I get angry very often and I find it hard to control. I usually end up spanking my daughter and sometimes hold her very tightly and shake her a bit and I start shouting at her. But as soon as I’m done I suddenly feel extremely guilty and start crying. I don’t know what to do about this anger. Sometimes I feel that I’m not myself when i’m like this and I get scared that I might hurt my daughter. Is there something I can do or recite to help control my anger? Please help me. Thank you very much.
wa ‘alaykum salam,
Mawlana Shaykh Muhammad Hisham Kabbani is praying for you, but this is so serious, you need immediate intervention, to prevent harming your baby after which no amount of repentance will help. The best is to have someone with you at all times, mother, sister, etc. who is aware of your condition and who can help you with the baby so you don’t get into this dangerous state.
Else you need to seek professional psychiatric help immediately to get your anger under some kind of reasonable control.
Recite Ya Halim x100 and Ya Samad x500 daily. Whenever you feel anger welling up, go make fresh ablution and pray 2 raka`ats, and again recite Ya Halim until the anger goes down.