I have recently lost my imaan. I fell in love with a Christian. Instead of trying to convert him I lied to him about how I feel. I was confused. I normally never lie. I live in regret. I need him and I need my iman. Help me. Did I do wrong?
Audhubillahi min ash-shaytani ‘r-rajeem
Wa alaikum Salaam,
We are living in a time as described by the Prophet (peace be upon him) that to hold your deen would be like holding on to a hot coal. However, if we know with certainty that we are holding on to something more precious than the most rare diamond, it eases the pain and gives us the strength to move on in the path of Allah. As human beings we are going to follow the way of the one we love. If the love of the Prophet (peace be upon him) is granted to our hearts, we will be inclined to love what he loves and dislike what he dislikes which will ultimately be to our success and happiness. If the love of people, wealth, etc. competes with the love of the Prophet (peace be upon him) we will find our hearts confused and our life will reflect this. Try to follow the way in which your heart will find peace, security and Divine Love to achieve the best of this life and the hereafter.
Wa min Allah tawfiq,