Yesterday i was crying in public and there was a nun who saw me. She approached me and asked me if I’m ok. I said yes thank you. And she said you are Muslim correct? I said yes. And she said it’s ok to be Muslim, we don’t care what religion you follow. She asked me for my first name. And I told her. She said she would pray for me tonight and ask all the nuns in the monastery to also pray for me. She was very very sweet and caring, especially since she doesn’t know me and didn’t have to help me at all. She gave me the address to her monastery and also the website. She said I’m welcome to come visit her any afternoon in any day. She said she wished to give me a tour of the monastery and introduce me to other sisters. In the end, she said we don’t convert people. We are accepting you as you are don’t worry God loves you. And she asked me if she helped me today and I said she was very kind and gracious and I appreciate it. And she smiled and said she hopes I come soon and left.
Last night I looked at her website and realized that those who are given tours and invited to meet the other nuns are going through a process to see if they wish to become a nun. The next step after that is for them to invite the person to spend 6 weeks to live their life as a nun doing all the things the nuns do and then to go home and decide if this is the life they wish to lead. Anyway, I read the rest of their website and was fascinated by their way of life.
So when I fell asleep I had a dream that I was in a room sitting and crying. My heart was broken and so much blood was pouring out of my chest. But I was not in physical pain. Everyone that I know in real life was forming a circle around me and watching me as the pool of blood around me grew bigger and bigger. When I opened my mouth to ask for help, suddenly everyone turned around and gave me their backs and the circle broke and they began to talk among themselves but very very loudly. Suddenly that same nun that I met in real life, appeared out of nowhere and she put her hand on my chest and said only love can heal a broken heart. Who has love is able to give love and she was smiling and kept shaking her head yes, yes. Then she said I’m waiting for you and I woke up.
wa `alaykum salam
These nuns represent holy ones who are followers of the Prophet (s) in secret and who are, like us, awaiting the return of Sayyidina `Isa (as) on this earth. You are attracted to them because their way is a way of perfect devotion, and they are attracted to you because you reflect that character. Sayyidina `Isa (as) will descend from heavens on the arms of two angels at the time of the dawn prayer at al-minarat al-bayda, the white minaret, in Damascus at the time of the Great Tribulation, when the anti-Christ appears to deceive and harm the majority of human beings. Sayyidina `Isa (Jesus Christ) will then slay the anti-Christ and establish the Kingdom of Faith.
Her saying “we’re waiting for you” means “we are waiting to be like you, showing our Islam openly” and “the only way to heal a broken heart is love” means this earth’s heart is broken due to the unutterable destruction and harm that human beings have done to the environment and to each other and only the loving touch of Sayyidina `Isa (as) and Imam Mahdi, who precedes him, can restore its balance and restore justice and remove darkness and oppression.
w ‘Allahu `alam,
reviewed and approved by Shaykh Hisham Kabbani