Question:
I was in a haram relationship with [private] for some years. He used to tell me that [private] approved of our alliance. He and his family had promised to get us married. I was madly in love with him and We committed the zina and he told me afterwards not to worry because we were going to get married. But after meeting my family recently, he ran away without telling me anything. He went to spread tales about me to his family In the end i found out he used me.
I feel utterly ashamed disgusted at myself for being disobedient to Allah swt… I cannot believe I gave in to my emotions and desires and went astray in the hopes of marrying him. I have been repenting sincerely for the past few months but feel completely hopeless. I have been losing weight and its affecting my health.
Answer:
wa `alaykum salam,
In-sha-Allah Mawlana Shaykh Hisham Kabbani is praying for you.
Repent sincerely of the zina, regardless of this person’s actions, by seeking intercession of the Prophet (s) following the teachings of our Shuyukh. As Mawlana Shaykh Hisham Kabbani said, in the suhbat of May 12th, 2010:
O Muslims! If we understand a little bit of what awliyaaullah have said, we will be amazed. Allah said in Holy Quran:
وَلَوْ أَنَّهُمْ إِذ ظَّلَمُواْ أَنفُسَهُمْ جَآؤُوكَ فَاسْتَغْفَرُواْ اللّهَ وَاسْتَغْفَرَ لَهُمُ الرَّسُولُ لَوَجَدُواْ اللّهَ تَوَّابًا رَّحِيمًا
{If they had only, when they were unjust to themselves, come unto thee and asked Allah’s forgiveness, and the Messenger had asked forgiveness for them, they would have found Allah indeed Oft-returning, Most Merciful.} (4:64)
Idh zhalamoo anfusahum, “If they are oppressors to themselves,” then what? Jaaooka, in Arabic, ay taqadama bil-amal ila hadrati ‘n-Nabi (s). This means he moved to the presence of the Prophet (s). He didn’t say jaooka faqad, only for them to do that in their minds. He said jaooka, “they came to you.” This means that if any Muslim knows he has committed a sin, and he comes to the Presence of the Prophet (s), not only in his mind, but that moment Allah will create a power that takes him physically to presence of the Prophet (s). Because jaaook — al-kaf li ‘n-nabi. Because we say “as-salaam `alayka yaa Rasoolullah” saying salaams to you yaa Muhammad. “Yaa Muhammad (s) we see you, we are coming to you,” so jaooka, means “we reach him,” not by car or by walking but by super heavenly power that Allah will give to take you to Madinatu ‘l-Munawwara, from your place to his presence in Madinatu ‘l-Munawwara.
Sayyidina `Asif ibn al-Barkhiya, the minister and a wali, was helping Sayyidina Sulayman (a). When Sayyidina Sulayman asked in a meeting, like this one, “I want someone between you who can bring me the throne of the Queen of Sheba, before she arrives here. Can anyone bring that throne?” There was a giant jinn from maradata ‘l-jinn. There are jinn giants, taller than airplanes fly today. They are from Earth 10 miles or 30 miles, or even hundreds of miles tall. They could move cities to Sayyidina Sulayman (a). He asked can you bring the Throne of Sheba? So he said that he can bring it. They move, whirling like tornadoes. You see that tornado, that is the movement of jinn together, sometimes it is 250 kilometers per hour. If you look inside the tornadoes, you can see what is there in the eye, there are huge jinn spinning. Sayyidina Sulayman (a) said, “Can you get me the throne?” “Yes, but it will take 24 hours, qabl an-taqoomu min maqaamik. After your meeting with the Queen of Sheba, I will get it,” said the jinn. “No not after, I need it before she comes,” said Sulayman (a). Then one wali, not a high wali, but a normal wali, said “I can get it to you in the blink of an eye.” “Get it,” said Sulayman (a). And he closed his eyes and he opened them and the throne was there. Kayfa ja’a al-`arsh? That is the word here, ja’a, “came”. How did he get it there?
The one that brought the throne of Bilqees to Sayyidina Sulayman (a) was a wali for Sayyidina Sulayman [i.e. a wali in that time under the power and auspices of Sayyidina Sulayman and the divine dispensation in his time.]
So, does not Prophet (s) have awliya that can bring those who are doing istighfaar, in the blink of an eye to the presence of the Prophet (s)? There are awliyaaullah assigned especially for anyone who says istighfaar, by the power of angels, they move them, if they are in millions even, they move them in the presence of Prophet and the Prophet (s) looks at them and he sees everyone separately form the other all in the same moment, he can see all of them and none of them are interfering with the other; they come in the blink of an eye and the Prophet (s) asks them to do istighfaar in his presence and he will do istighfaar for them on their behalf to Allah swt. And then they will be returned with the power of awliyaaullah, to their places, and they have been cleaned.
Taher Siddiqui
