Please, I need help from MawlanaShaykh. I try to do what needs to be done eachday- find it very difficult, have health issues though some say these are mostly mental, perhaps. Perhaps I am just plain lazy. Read that if one recites 1000 times Ya Hayyu Ya Qayyumu between sunnah and fard of fajr, laziness of all sorts goes away so recited that a few times.
Used to be energetic and hard-working. Now no matter what i do i can’t seem to fullfill any role to satisfaction – mother, housewife, daughter. Am a complete failure in all aspects of mylife, I have only the door of Mawlana Shaykh to knock on and askforhelp. Everyone around me is unhappy with me, please pray that I fulfill my roles and responsibilities to those in my care and make them happy. If there is something that I can recite inshaAllah i will.
Since you said that you are praying fajr, that is a sign that you are not lazy, so you are trying only to convince yourself that you are lazy. Many people do their daily work but don’t pray fajr because they say we are lazy. You are praying fajr so you are not lazy. Some people put an alarm clock, it rings and then they go and turn it off.
So next time, I told them to put two alarm clocks. One near the bed and one far away from the bed, but you are not of that type. Since you are praying fajr, don’t let your ego overcome you . Raise the sword against your ego by reciting hasbunallah wa ni’ama ‘l-wakeel 100x, that is a sword against the ego.
Shaykh Muhammad Hisham Kabbani