I want to ask a very hard question I am trying to find its answer since 2 years I am worshiping ALLAH with very hard efforts and attending daily, weekly and monthly Islamic events in the Masjids but since I am very active in my Islamic life 2 years, my face and body becomes very very ugly, my colour is becomes black while my colour was clear before. and now I see only dangerous and ugly dreams, only once a month I can see a good dream. Now peoples also points towards me that how ugly he is while he seems a religious person and there is no noor on his face, even scholars and peoples does not like to handshake with me and sit with me or reply my Salam.
The symptoms you describe might be caused by kibr. Take bayaa with Mawlana Shaykh Nazim (Allah bless his secret) online if you have not done so already and try to attend a weekly or monthly circle of dhikr with one of his representatives. Make abundant Salawat on the Prophet Muhammad (upon him blessings and peace) and do not put stock in your worship but give thanks to Allah Most High in any case.
Hajj Gibril Haddad