As salam mu alakum,
I am always depressed mainly because of the many calamities that I have faced in the past few years. I pray five times a day, I have even gone to umrah just recently.
I have had so much happen to me, and even wanted to marry a certain girl, and then a calamity ruined that. Calamity after calamity happens to me. When i ask Allah to relieve me, more bad things happen I dont know why Allah keeps doing this to me. I am not a bad person. I have made lots of dua. But I dont why Allah is ignoring me. I feel like killing myself sometimes.
A`udhu billahi min ash-shaytan ir-rajeem
Bismillahi ‘r-Rahmani ‘r-Raheem
wa `alaykum salam,