Dear Shaykh Assalamu alaykum,
I have been senile for many years, to some degree even though I am in my mid forties. This condition, I believe has been brought on by not being able to get married, despite desperate need and associated bad habits.
Can you say to what extent is there mercy for me in case of my religious obligations, including staying pure and chaste, even though staying pure and chaste has put a stop to my ‘life’: I am unable to think straight, concentrate, or even work or study to support myself and move forwards in life?
May Allah reward you with all good.
Keep your fast, give sadaqa and find a Naqshbandi Haqqani group to make weekly or monthly dhikr with. Try to travel to meet Mawlana as it will bring light to your life and improve your worship in sha Allah. Do not dwell on guilt or negative feelings. Rather, remember the gifts and blessings Allah has given you over the years. Continue to look for suitable spouse and Allah Most High will send you one in sha Allah.
Hajj Gibril Haddad