Assamualaikum wr wb,
I am actually embarrassed to ask about this, but my heart always told to ask,
When I do awrad for Initiate, I feel something missing, so I raise to Prepared awrad, but still missing, I raise to determination awrad.
After determination awrad, my right shoulder and back ached too much twist beads (tasbih).
At that time I had a dream meet Grandshaykh Abdullah Faiz Daghestani, he was lying in bed, dressed black, I was in front of his right, then he sat down and looked at me deeply and said through his heart to my heart, you are a good mureed. then he touched my right back with the fingers of his left hand.
After that many dreams come from ShaykhNazim, Prohpet (saw), ShaykhHisham, HabibUmar, Sayyidina Khidr (as), Jibril,
My question: do I still keep doing determination awrad? because I am not worthy to do so.
It does not matter as long as you are regular and persistent.
Hajj Gibril Haddad