AOA, I feel as if everything I want to do never works out the way I want it to. For example, when I go to a job interview I’ll get the perfect job, however I’ll find out later that there have been changes made and I didn’t get what I wanted. The same goes for any other task. I try to do simple tasks however I get faced with so many problems that I just want to give up and ask God why this is happening to me. I get overcome with extreme anger and I don’t know how to control it. Why do I feel like I’m being faced with so many obstacles for such simple tasks? I read hasbonillah-ho-wanaymil-vakeel 100 times daily because Sheik Hisham told me too. I don’t know how to get out of this feeling of depression and how to make things right. Jazakullah.
Counting on dunya is fraught with disappointment hence anger and depression. These two states show we are far from dhikr which is the law
and practice of Awliya. So focus more on dhikr and think of Akhira, don’t be sad or deluded about dunya. In sha Allah your state will improve little by little, and you can read ya Haleem x100 daily to control anger.
Hajj Gibril Haddad