As-salaam alaikum wa rehmatullahi wa barakatuhu ya Shaikh Hishaam,
Saiyyidi, I have been a mureed of Mawlana Shaikh Nazim for over 6 years now, and undoubtedly the worst mureed possible, but a mureed none the less! I just can’t seem to improve as a mureed and a Muslim. I feel as if there are knots tied around my heart or as if there is a lock on it. I need your dua for an opening! Please help!!! I went to see Mawlana Shaikh Nazim 2 weeks ago but it wasn’t possible to say all this to him, as he is so busy and meeting time is so short. May Allah bless him with a good, long, healthy life. Thank you , as salaam alaikum
wa `alaykum salam,
If someone says halan fa`lan – by tongue and by heart – that he is the worst mureed, he will become the highest mureed. Many awliyaullah took their amanah because they felt they were the worst. This is needed in this Path, as Allah said, “wa la tuzakko anfusakum; don’t praise your ego”, as ego always likes to be praised. To reach high levels you must destroy the ego, and that is what tariqah is based on. Don’t worry you are not the worst, there are worse than that, and might be I am the worst. Not might be, for sure.
Through your heart you will reach him and your visit is accepted. Shuyukh reach their mureeds wherever they are. And we are inshaAllah praying for you.
Shaykh Muhammad Hisham Kabbani