Oh my Shaykh, please help me. I want to go. I want Allah to judge me. I don’t want to live in this dunya anymore. I’m so weak and I can’t live in dunya. I’m struggling a lot, I don’t know who or what I am. I can’t be neither happy nor sad. Lots of thoughts coming in my heart. My heart is opressed with dunya. I don’t know if I am strong enough to be on this tariqa way. There is one girl I like, she is Christian. I made istighara few times, but nothing. One night I made du’a for Allah to tell me in a dream which girl should I marry and I dreamed her. But she is so afraid of me, I don’t know why oh my Shaykh. I don’t know is it correct to marry Christian girl? This question is for Mawlana Shaykh Hisham only.
wa `alaykum salam,
Be patient, Allah is Generous. Do not insult life, as Allah is ad-Dahr (Life).
Shaykh Muhammad Hisham Kabbani