Salaam aleikum dear honorable ones.
I feel shame, being fortunate: within hardships there was/is much mercy, blessings, teaching. Alhamdullilah.
Not only for myself, I feel fear. I feel physically sick. Shocked about this world.
Brought up Christian, I saw very sick things in Christianity, new-age, in so many things, any perspective from life. Also in Islam- astaghfirulla.
This is not only about me. For some reason Allah showed me the sickness, darkness, hell,but made me also meet the most sweet people, Light, Him. The Light within all.
I feel in the world darkness growing, hell, death. I am sad, I hoped love would win. Being in a strong hard situation again, which needs another miracle I am tired and fear the darkness.
Only hope the Mehdi comes soon and be with him.
Embracing Islam, under protection of the wonderful Sheikh Nazim. How I dare fear!
Fear is sickness –astagfirulla. How to cure it?
audhu billah mina ‘sh-shaytani ‘r-rajeem
Bismillahi ‘r-Rahmani ‘r-Raheem
As Salaam alaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuh,
Have patience and keep spiritual practices. With consistent practices that you can keep such as the daily dhikr (wird), connect your heart with Shaykh Nazim asking for spiritual support to reach your heart and bring light. It is a spiritual struggle but if you don’t give up insha-Allah you will taste more spiritual support and succeed. Also avoid excessive bad news (media, etc.) and keep yourself for heavenly news through dhikr, meditation, reading sohbahs and trying to reach spiritual peace in your heart.